It's often hard for one to come back to the realization that they were always alive when they feel they've been dead for so long. I spent much time in deep thought and in much pain since the last update. The clouds have all cleared this time though. I managed to make the right moves this time.

I saw off a brother and a friend onto his 2 year journey ahead of him.. it was very hard for me to watch him go. I took him to the vary gates of his flight and watched him walk away. Of all of the most painful, un-nerving, and upsetting things i've experienced.. this I would have to say was the hardest. I didn't want to believe he'd go and actually do this. I'm damn proud of him though. He's been the inspiration to me for a full year now and helped me to keep my head out of the gutter.

I feel I've been given the proper tools now to fend for myself though. I have to put myself to the test and see where I am to go. I'm unsure of what to expect really but I'm content and happy with that.

This account will remain inactive until I find myself posting again on it.

= Gary =